orange groves

so, there are some new things on my radar.

#1- going on adventures is something i am quite fond of, and something which i have been doing quite frequently. a tentative list:

- Cocoa Beach- i watched a space shuttle launch!! the beach at night is amazing- i've never felt more connected to the earth and close to God, at the core of it all- not the glamorous church'd up God, but simply our creator, the huge essence behind this GIGANTIC scheme of things, in which we are just microscopic dots on the radar. nothing can make you feel so small as the ocean and the sky, separated by a paper thin, infinite horizon. the infinity of it all makes you want to cry, merely at the thought of your own insignificance in the grand scheme of things.

- Disney World (of course)

-Cirque Du Soleil- blows my mind. half price tickets are the best.

- the Little Boxes on Wisteria Lane in Celebration, FL... we saw a legit homicide crime scene, with CSI units and yellow crime scene tape and EVERYTHING one night around 1am, in the middle of this PERFECT stepford community. they have their own charter school, big church... insanity.

- Wonderworks. epic tunnel. 'nuff said.

- Downtown Orlando Ghost Tours. creepy, crazy stuff.

- the orange groves on Overstreet. We happened upon them one night when we were lost behind the magic kingdom. E pulled over, i got out to go pick one, and when i stepped out, the smell... is like Heaven. literally. acres upon acres of orange trees surrounding this little neighborhood, and wind willing, you wake up to smell that every day. funny thing is- every time we go there before midnight, you can't smell it... but the later it is, the sweeter the air becomes. i currently have 2 fresh pciked oranges in my car, and we've got 4 sitting on E's counter. i'll never see oranges the same again.

-WholeFoods- just whoa with the healthy tastiness. and their huge chocolate and dessert and gelato section. just whoa.

#2- i have officially added more accents to my spieling repetoire at work- today i was british for an hour, went to southern alternating with normal for a while, then became my new game show host self. it's completely heinous.

#3- i'm not going back to oklahoma. i'm going to give my mom the green light to move to Ft Lauderdale, i'd like to go to Valencia, change my major to PR, live with ethan (and matt when he gets here,) work at disney seasonally, maybe in a year transfer to FSU or UCF, continue voice lessons, start dance lessons, become more of myself and less of a mold. i understand i won't be so close to family, but my mom and brother are in this state, and i'll come back to the south to visit whenever possible- go on a tour of texas during breaks to see everyone. there are people in oklahoma that i will miss, and people in oklahoma i wish i could get to know better and spend some time with, but i need to let it go- there will be people here in florida too. people to go to the beach with! now i just need to let my parents know... 

it's terrifying, making big decisions. it's like this dreadful feeling that if you make something definite, you isolate and rule out all your other options. FML. 

#4- our tour guide on the ghost tour, Beau, is quite the old soul. we ended up chatting with him for quite some time after our tour about musicals, and as it turns out, he's written one and is VERY keen on Ethan and i doing a read/sing thru, with some tweaking or fine tuning or general suggestions thrown in. it sounded VERY complicated when he was explaining it, and i know we both got a bit lost, but that only proves that a) its complex enough to be totally original and b_ Beau knows it better than the back of his hand. it is his baby. oh, and best part about it? he made the leading female a brunette mezzo ;)