i wrote this at 1:27 am, January 1, 2009. (the Kahlil Gibran quotes were added today, i thought they were delightfully fitting- these are from his work "The Prophet." Everyone should check out his stuff: http://leb.net/gibran/)
As of today, i am a vocal performance and education major at Oklahoma City University, but i will be taking a 7 month hiatus from the 405 to work at Disneyworld through their paid college internship program. I am looking forward to seeing fireworks every night, and think that life should be like that always.
as of today, i am no longer hung up on my past. it exists and i can't change it, but trials are what make you a stronger person. I am starting a new blog because all my old ones are stupid, and not who i am anymore- period.
"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain."
as of today, i believe i should not have to specifically search for "that special someone," or lower my standards just to have a boyfriend. i really don't have unbelievably high standards- i just have a hard time letting my guard down. If you've got a good heart, the ability to keep things fresh and entertaining and can speak intelligently without bullshitting me, i'll probably give it a shot! I am a strong, independent woman, and deserve to be with someone who is not afraid of that.
"Love gives naught but itself and takes not but of itself; Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; for Love is sufficient unto Love."
as of today, i realize i don't need countless friends to be happy. i much prefer having a handful of very close friends, whom i can laugh with, bare my soul to, and trust me as i do them.
"for without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.... ...and in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures; for in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed."
as of today, i realize family will be there when all else fails, and mine give me a sense of stability that i can get nowhere else- specifically in my mother. I also appreciate the fact that i have formed a relationship with my dad on my own, and it's nice. I love my family- even the crazy extended family. they are the reason i am the person i am, at my very core.
i guess this wouldn't be complete without some resolutions, so here we go:
as of today, i resolve to make my life count. i resolve to enjoy living. i resolve to get my jiggly ass back in the gym. i resolve to be even more adventurous than i have already become. i resolve to laugh more, and attempt to bring the same joy to other people. i resolve to take care of my voice, and to work hard to become the best i can be. all in all, i guess i just resolve to be a total badass in 2009. =)
happy new year's, everyone.
"your reason and your passion are the rudder and sails of your seafaring soul... for reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction; therefore, let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion."
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