giving thanks.

so, thanksgiving is around the corner, and it makes me feel obilgated to think about the things i am thankful for- well, obligated is poor word choice, as it makes me sound like a douche; truth be told, i think about things that i'm thankful for on a pretty regular basis, but never sit down and write a list. which is not what i intended to do here, i just haven't written in a while and that's the foremost thing in my mind right now. that being said though- i am thankful for family. friends. my sanity. music. nature. art. strength. food. rest. animals. intimacy. my brain. ...all equally. also, i am thankful for possibility. My future is a gigantic sliding glass door of possibility, and yet i keep running into the glass trying to figure out which way to go through. I'm thankful that i have the freedom to do anything i want to with my life- but that much opportunity is quite the burden, when trying to choose a path in life.

I emailed Hunter admissions office today about transfer credits, and i will be forever thankful if my un-accredited community college classes will transfer. I'm so sick of rules that serve no purpose. i mean, i'm sure they serve some kind of purpose, in other cases... but i like to think that i am the exception to the rule, in most things in life. including, but not limited to, my education. i promise, they're not from a community college in someone's basement!

I just watched the latest episode of Dexter. it was intense, and i am obsessed, and that's all there is to say about that.

It's funny, things you learn about yourself as you get older, and begin to take your place in the world; i mean, i've yet to find mine, obviously... but i do seem to keep fitting into the same roles in other people's lives. mainly as a listener, someone people see as a nurturer of sorts, that they can open up to- which is definitely not the idea of myself that i've always had. and yet, time and time again, people come to me for advice, and i still don't understand why because i'm quite sure i suck at advice! i don't tell people what they want to hear, i tend not to cater to their emotions, especially when they're asking me about something stupid. i can't do drama. my brain doesn't work that way, i'm not a real girl. SIGH. dear co-baristas: your drama is taking up too much of my time and life. quit it.

i just got sidetracked and watched this video of a guy i went to highschool with that i had a thing for, Grant, do stand up... he totally tanked. it makes me feel better about myself, in a twisted way. :)

i should go to bed. wait... cookie crisp. then bed. yep.